Journey to my best me

On a mission to a happier, healthier life... will you join me?

Author: Ckulac

Trying to do it all…

… and feeling very overwhelmed.

I have learned over time that I am the type of person that “If I want it done right I have to do it myself” and that is leading me to become very overwhelmed with life at the moment.  Do you ever get to the point where you look around and see that pile of stuff you have to finish for work, the messy house that needs not only cleaning but organizing, the kids you don’t spend enough quality time with, the scale that has gotten a little away from you when you had been so good… and not know where to even start?  I have gotten to that point.  I know I need to start somewhere but I tend to freeze and let myself get overwhelmed instead of picking a starting point and moving towards a goal.  So, that is my mission… 

I started this week (for the first time EVER) prioritizing me.  I had my hernia surgery about 3 months ago and had not been able to exercise at all for a long long time.  my eating habits started slowly slipping back into popcorn, hamburgers and french fries, and although I know I was much better still than I had been before joining Beachbody I was starting to feel tired again and the scale started creeping up just a little bit.  Now I am not panicking about the scale at all but I realize I just don’t feel as good as I had pre-surgery and I was using the I can’t work out excuse for long enough.  I started a few weeks ago off and on doing some of the workouts without weights and modifying to build back my strength.  This week was week 1 on a full play on the 21-day Fix and I will say I am happier and more energetic already than i had been in a while.  It is not easy and this morning especially I did not want to get out of bed… but I am so glad and proud that I did.

This weekend is step 2… Spending a TON of quality time with my boys.  It is Halloween after all!

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And I think I will incorporate step 3 into some of that quality time… Building a plan to get my house back in shape and having them help.  I have noticed that it is causing a lot of stress on the whole family to be disorganized and cluttered… I am off to find some inspiration… Anyone have any tricks they can share with me?

Let’s get this started!

I think the best way to start this Blog is to introduce myself!  I am a mother of 2 amazing little boys, a wife, a sister, a daughter, a granddaughter, a niece, a wine sales person, a photographer, and now a BeachBody coach.  To say I have a busy life is an understatement.  And with that busy life I had kind of let myself go… like really let myself go.  To the point that I was heavier 9 months AFTER having my son than I was when he was 3 months old.  When I visited my Dr for a checkup back in January we were talking about the hernia I have (thank you to the two large babies I have carried) and she said “you know you are going to need to lose weight before you get that fixed”.  Then she added the best part “you are too young to let yourself go”.  Hearing that from my Dr brought me to an all time low.  I was once a competitive swimmer… in amazing shape… and could eat ANYTHING.  Now I am “too young to let myself go”  How did that happen?  How did I get to this point?  After a conversation with a very good friend of mine who is also in the crazy world of wine sales, I realized i was not the only person that felt that way.  You know the feeling… when you walk into a store and really need new clothes for work because, let’s face it, yours are ratty… but you refuse to try on the next size up because you are “going to lose the weight” but trying on the “right size” is uncomfortable and sometimes impossible… then you complain in your head that this store must run small… then you shed a tear because you know in your heart that you are just larger than you would like to admit.   The you walk out with nothing but lower self esteem and a little self hatred… then you grab a pretzel to help yourself feel better and give yourself a treat.  Then you say to yourself “I am going to eat better” but you really don’t even know what that means… you think you do but you don’t…  and a week later you jump on the scale and the numbers haven’t changed… and the cycle repeats.

My friend and I talked about our stressful jobs and how much weight we have gained… then she mentioned she was going to try this thing… called BeachBody.  She was going to start with their 21 Day fix program and if i wanted to I could sign up under her and we could do it together.  The shakes were a little pricey but if I signed up as a coach I would get a discount… I thought about it for a quick second… “I’m In” I told her.  As long as we are doing this together we can help each other stay on track.

That was 6 months ago… and I have to say it was the best decision I have ever made for myself.  And now?  I want to help others feel the way I feel now…  I feel better, am more confident, and stronger.  Will you go on this journey with me?